June 2012
22 posts
May 2012
54 posts
Dear Taylor,
I don’t want this summer to end. I am so happy that you are living with me this summer. I don’t know what I would do without you. I wish you could stay forever. Let’s enjoy every minute of it while we can! I love you!
Love, Hanna
“Find other things to hold onto. Good things.”
You don’t even know what’s going on with me. And I’m not going to tell you unless you ask. Because I ignore things in my life. I don’t like to believe that they’re real..
It’s good to talk. I need to talk about things. I can’t keep hiding these things in my head. I need to speak them to the ones who care. It was good talking to my friend Vanessa tonight. I need to keep talking about things.
So I have tomorrow off.. What am I going to do with my life? I think I’m going to try to clean out some things in my room. Have a fresh organized start. I recently learned that you should collect moments, not things. Maybe I should try this..
I am free
I have no one to answer to. I can do my own thing. I am relieved. The only one I have to answer to is God. Feels good.
“I say “gosh freakin dangit” when it’s really bad.”
– Hanna(this is Taylor using Hanna’s phone to quote her cause she’s using my phone)
You letting me go is the best thing that’s ever happened to me. Yeah I would like to say these words some day. Until then I’m not sticking around anymore. You let me go, and I am free. I am free to move on. I’m free to let you go. I’m free not to worry. I’m free not to wonder. I’m free to be happy. I’m free to live.
You took it from me. Your teared me down. I was oblivious to it all. You gave me this feeling that was addicting. It was good when I was around you, but when I was away from you all you did was treat me horribly. You led me on, and I never thought I could drive you away. It didn’t matter what i’d say because you would stick around. You didn’t love me, yet you wouldn’t let...
Thank you for setting me free.
You make feel crazy, no one should make anyone feel this way. It’s time to get over you.
So I guess this is it.
The past is the past. You can’t change it. Just make the most of your life now to look back and see how far you’ve come.
It’s my life. It’s now or never.
Things are getting better. Thank you Lord for this day. Thank you for Megan’s bike not getting stolen. Thank you for my friend Taylor who always helps me, and is wonderful, caring, sweet, and just plain amazing! Love her so much! I also want to thank you Lord for all my supportive friends. Thank you for putting them in my life. I love you, Lord. I’m going find you again. I’m...
Thank you Lord for this day. I pray that Megan’s bike will be found. I love you, Lord. Thank you for your grace. Please be with me. In your name I pray, amen.
One day I’ll find the man who sees me as my friends do. A man that will see my strengths and weaknesses. One who will think i’m funny and make me laugh. The one man who will love me no matter what. For now, that man is jesus, until God gives me this man. I love you Lord, make me strong.
Wednesday
My friend Aaron came over today! And we barbecued some chicken and cooked some potatoes and peas! Actually he did all the cooking :) haha. It was so nice to just hang out and eat dinner, play cards, and then we went on a bike ride to the bridge! And watched the sunset. I could go there everyday. Aaron also let me drive his truck! Let’s me drive his truck and cooks me dinner? Yes, best guy...
“If anyone is ashamed of me and my words in this adulterous and sinful...”
– (Mark 8:38 NIV)
I’m so lost. It’s going to be hard to find myself again. But I can do it with the support of my savior, friends, and family.
Forgive and Forget
You’re my drug. I’m not going to let myself continue to be addicted. Discovering what is good for me.
I love summertime. No worries about having to study or get things done. I can work and hang out with my friends all day long. Love just hanging out.
“Work hard. Play hard.”
Quittin’ you.
“You need to focus on your future and who you are. Save yourself for someone who...”
– Taylor Farris
With all the high stress lately, I couldn’t even imagine being in a relationship right now. My life right now wouldn’t be good for a relationship. I need to get my life together. I can’t rely on the boy to make me happy. I need to truly be happy with myself first. That is my goal for this summer, to work towards being happy with myself and my life. It’ll be good.
